" I Had a Woman at the well Conversion... According to John;4
Like most children that are born in America they have parents, and grow up in a happy family and become successful citizens in life. Well for me, that was only a fairy tale. My beginning in this earth was quite eventful. I was born weighing only 3 pounds, having to spend weeks in a incubator fighting for my very life... which set the precedent for many years to come. Before I could even walk my natural mother took us (myself, and my two brothers) and dropped us off in an orphanage. My father found us... but did not have the means, the finances to take care of us. So, all three of us children became a ward of the State of California, and placed in government foster homes,from a young infant until 7 yrs. old. At 7 our Dad came and got up from the foster home, because now he was married and had a house for us to live in. There was constant arguing and fighting in our home.I saw my Dad hit my step-Mom. Not one child ever did anything right. We were always be scolded and yelled at. Our punishment consisted of his belt, hot chili peppers, and writing 3,000- 5,000 lines, I will do what I am told to do. At the age of 12 I could not take the pressure anymore, so I began to run away from home . From the time I felt abandoned from my parents, that feeling stayed for a very long time, until the day I found Jesus Christ. I found myself back in and out of foster homes from age 13-18 yrs. old. Now I would only go to my house for visits. I started very young experimenting with drugs, as early as age 12. I was in many juvenile deliquent centers,up and down the coast of California. At age 14 I had run away from my foster home and hitchhiked over 300 miles away from my home. Most of my teen-age years I spent getting high on drugs, trying to rid myself of all the pain inside my being. My mind was very confused, and my heart was broken, as was my entire life.I didn't care what happened to me...I felt like no one really wanted me, I seem to be rejected all of my life. My Dad was very abusive to all of his kids. He would stand me in the corner, turn me around when he felt like it, nose to my nose, and shout in my face.. and say.. WHO ARE YOU? TELL ME WHO YOU ARE? I had to reply... NOBODY.. he would respond and say.. "THAT'S RIGHT YOU ARE NOBODY, YOU HEAR ME! YOU ARE TO BE SEEN AND NOT HEARD. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?? I would cry and say.. Yes! Sir!.. Over and Over again He would say this to all of us kids. It seemed as tho I was on a roller coaster ride of pain and hurt, not knowing how to get off. How would this pain of rejection, never ever being accepted, ever leave me? This one night when I was partying and getting high, and I became paranoid. I felt I had to get out of the house I was currently staying in. I ran down the stairs and outside into the night, running down a dark alley . Suddenly I ran in front of this busy 4-way intersection of Eureka, Ca. I stood in the middle of this intersection and lifted my hands high in the air to stop this white pick up truck that was headed straight toward me. This white truck screeched on its brakes, and came to a stop! I ran around, to the passenger side and opened the door, and got in! This stranger, ended up taking me to a cafe, bought me apple pie and a cup of coffee. He was the kindest softest spoken man I had ever met in my life. He talked to me all night long, til in the morning.I lied to him and told him I was over 18 yrs. old. I thanked him, then went my way. 13 years later that particular event was an event that would be used to turn my sinful shameful, life around. On the morning of Jan.31,1982 (the day of my natural birthday) my little daughter asked if I would go to church with her. I said No! She said again in persistence, Please mama... she begged me. I finally said, "Alright I will go". I was mad!I did not really want to go there, but I gave in anyhow. What did they do in church I wondered! I had a thought, I will go in and get out real quick! It was a beautiful Day that morning.Having never attended a church before,having never even prayed, or read a bible, In my entire life. I called my sister-in-law to ask her what did they do in church?? She said, "Well we have Sunday school first, then regular church". I asked,"What is the difference?She said," Well I don't know". She asked me"Are you coming with us"? I replied" Yes I am". So she came and picked us up.... We got out of the car and proceeded up the stairs of this little country Methodist church. As I walked through the doors, and into the sanctuary I quickly put my head down, as I made my way to the pew. I felt so ashamed,AND So guilty of my lifestyle of sin. I knew that I was a sinner yet, ALL OF A SUDDEN I HEARD A VOICE SPEAK TO ME... HE SAID, "I LOVE YOU"! Thoughts were racing through my mind. I need to get out of here! I am not church material! I am not like these people! From foster homes, to juvenile deliquency,to drugs, to being a night club singer, I certainly did not belong in this church. As the wrestling went on , my heart agreed that I was tired of running.Tired of my life. I began to relinquish control. God's voice spoke to me again and said, "I Love You"! I could not believe I was hearing such a thing. Again.. I still hung my head, and was saying within my heart, He must have me mixed up with someone else. I knew it was God speaking to me. And how I knew that, I cannot answer. This is my first time....first time.... I was repeating this over and over again in my heart to God. I have never been to church! I have never prayed to You, or ever read Your bible. "I Love You", God said it again... He never altered His tone. I was communicating in my heart to God. How?? I do not know how. Surely you must not know where I have been, I said, and what I have done in my life. And if I tell You, You will tell me to leave! In my heart I really wanted to believe that God loved me, but was very skeptical. I just knew that when He heard what all I had done, He would surely tell me He had me mixed up with someone else. I also did not know He knew everything about me. I believed that the only way God would know what I had done was if I decided to tell Him. So right then and there, I wanted to find out if He really did love me. So I was going to tell God the awful sinful things I had done. On a scale from 1-10. I started low. about a 6. Low and behold, it was as tho I had not told Him anything about my past... God spoke again in the same tone and said to me again, "I Love You". Not even one reply of what I just told Him. Ok.... I am going for broke I said. I am going to tell You the worst thing I had ever done. Let me see if You are still going to say You love me. I told Him... what I had done... and again. He replied, "I Love YOU'. God would not even discuss my worst sin! Then suddenly to my left a devil appeared and spoke to me and said, "You will not be able to go back into the clubs again, you will not be able to sing again". ( I never believed in a devil before that day came) I listened to him and began to ponder it ... for just a moment... Then God spoke again ... and asked.. "Do you remember this". It was as tho you pulled a movie screen down in front of my eyes and I saw the whole event that happened to me when I was 14 yrs. old and had run away from home. Now on that day that I am in church, the Lord asked me, "Who was that man?". that took you to a cafe, and talked to you all night long?? I replied, He told me he was a run-away counselor. God said," I put him there". You felt all alone, you felt that no one has ever loved you. It was my hand that watched over you, protected you when you were afraid."I Love You". I KNEW RIGHT THEN THAT GOD REALLY LOVED ME.To watch over me with His Mercy & love, I knew I should be dead today, if it were not for His Everlasting Love. MY HEART WAS MELTING LIKE WAX TO A FLAME. I STARTED CRYING UNCONTROLLABLY.... I became mad at the devil and his evil presence... I began to say to the devil... YOU HAVE LIED TO ME ABOUT GOD... YOU HAVE KEPT ME FROM KNOWING HIM ALL THIS TIME... GOD HAS LOVED ME....God spoke to me again in a very matter of fact way and said, "I am not calling you anymore".I KNEW IN MY HEART I WANTED GOD MORE THAN MY VERY OWN LIFE...I AM COMING TO YOU NOW! so without an altar call, I got up from my pew, and suddenly ran down to the altar and fell on my knees .... crying uncontrollably unto God... and saying over and over again.. I am so sorry, I am so sorry. I love you God!! That Day I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ... It was according to John 3;3, I became born-again by the Spirit of God...I turned away from my old life, turned to God with all my heart, and never returned back to the clubs, drinking, or smoking.I now only wanted to get to know this TRUE LIVING God. From that day the Holy Spirit took me away for days,weeks, and months, and spoke to me about Himself through the scriptures in His bible.He was teaching me over and over again. I went back to the Methodist Church that night and requested a bible, and the next Sunday I was asked if I wanted to join the church.I did not know about Church procedures,their doctrines, or beliefs. I thought every church was the same and believed in Jesus Christ! I found out through the years, this is not true! ... I was in Love with Jesus!!!I asked God the day (Jan.31st,1982) I felt His Divine presence enter inside of me... "God what did You do to me?? All I want to do is be with You. Please show me according to Your word. God took me to the book of Romans, and God told me I died the day I ran to Him, because of my surrender unto Him, and that His resurrection life came inside my mortal body.Three Days later after I was born again, I had a vision, I saw Jesus in the grave, then I saw myself in the grave. I saw Jesus arise from the grave, then I saw myself arise, I saw Jesus resurrected into heaven, I saw myself arise from the grave, and walking in the earth. God again came to me a few days later after my born-again coversion ... and said He wanted me to be water baptized, to ask My pastor at the Methodist Church to water baptize me.. so within 7 days of my conversion I obeyed and was water baptized at my church. I was so hungry for God's Word, it seemed I could not get enough of His Word, some days all I could do was read, and read, and ponder on what I had read.For days I had read the book of Acts, and asked God to please give me what He gave to the disciples. In Acts 2;4 it reads, and they were ALL filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in unknown tongues!I kept asking God to fill me. So one day as I was washing dishes in my kitchen sink,I asked God "When can I be filled?"He said,"NOW!" I took my hands out of the water, dried them on the towel, then raised my hands unto God.He came upon me and filled me , I began to speak in unknown tongues, I went to my knees, weeping and thanking God for filling me, My heart was ON FIRE!.. I became a witness of Christ to everyone , and everywhere I went... this burning passion for Christ and His love for His people has consumed my heart!
It has continued for the past 40 years.
God's call upon my life has led me into all the world ... I began preaching everywhere!
GOD WANTS NO ONE TO PERISH... BUT ALL TO RECEIVE ETERNAL LIFE ONLY THROUGH JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD
I CANNOT BUT DECLARE JESUS' MIGHTY NAME , and SHARE THE LOVE OF CHRIST
THROUGH OUT OUR HURTING, LOST WORLD!
JESUS REMAINS THE SAME
LOVING,COMPASSIONATE,MERCIFUL,FULL OF JUSTICE AND TRUTH
OUR CHIEF SHEPHERD IS SEEKING TO SAVE THOSE WHO ARE LOST
SIN SEPARATES US FROM GOD... BUT ONLY OUR REPENTANCE AND FAITH UPON OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST CAN SAVE US...
Come to Jesus, He is waiting on you!
OH HOW WONDERFUL IS OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST!!
It has continued for the past 40 years.
God's call upon my life has led me into all the world ... I began preaching everywhere!
GOD WANTS NO ONE TO PERISH... BUT ALL TO RECEIVE ETERNAL LIFE ONLY THROUGH JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD
I CANNOT BUT DECLARE JESUS' MIGHTY NAME , and SHARE THE LOVE OF CHRIST
THROUGH OUT OUR HURTING, LOST WORLD!
JESUS REMAINS THE SAME
LOVING,COMPASSIONATE,MERCIFUL,FULL OF JUSTICE AND TRUTH
OUR CHIEF SHEPHERD IS SEEKING TO SAVE THOSE WHO ARE LOST
SIN SEPARATES US FROM GOD... BUT ONLY OUR REPENTANCE AND FAITH UPON OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST CAN SAVE US...
Come to Jesus, He is waiting on you!
OH HOW WONDERFUL IS OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST!!